Replace my sense of
anxiety with the notion
that here, I am safe.
Never been in such
a nonjudgmental presence;
Never felt this overwhelming want
to be in someone else’s company –
Your silence makes you all the more alluring.
I love to watch you deep in thought,
your effort focused into what you’re creating,
developing such an insatiable longing
to have you close to me.
The challenge of trying to elicit
praises of admiration from you,
to have you once more express your opinion of me,
to have it drip from your lips…
If only the words weren’t lodged in my throat,
If only the things I want to do to you
weren’t frozen in my muscles;
If only I could let go enough to show you
how much passion I really possess…
I promise I’m much more exciting to love
than I have been thus far.
but, being unable to express what I want to give you,
what I want to do to you,
leaves me feeling empty.